The stress of the manifesting poly projects is finally getting to me. Maybe the reality of the fact that I have to study something I don't like, and be good at it(nonetheless) is finally sinking in.
No.
I think the reality sank in long ago. Now I just have to face it. But I honestly thot i would be able to handle it better. Quit being such a pussy Joshua. Look at u whining to ur memos now. Boy ur a disgrace.

eh well..waddaya want me to do, be happy all the time? Great now the lecturer has reached and honestly I don't think the amount she is being paid is justified. She dosent even seem to know what she's talking about. Heck. Neither do I.

I've always known, yes known..that being happy is the only thing that matters. we will live and we will die. Simple question, live a happy life or sad life. Yes it appears to b the most innocent of questions and with it come the simplest of answers.

Be happy.

But heres the hard part. Why is it so difficult?