the circle is complete

Yup, finished my wushu tournament

well...

i guess there's just too much thoughts going through my mind about the whole thing

the whole inferiority complex and what have you's, the childhood neglect by coaches looking for medals

the working hard and unrecognized nonsense

everything.

cumulated till the wushu competition, which would signify a closure.

yes! closure. thats the word. a chapter of my life has officially ended.

even though i ended my last wushu session(before i came to YJC) 6 years ago, it somehow felt as though it never really ended

see, i became used to the notion of wushu existing in my life. For me, being in the education system became synonamous with me being able to return to wushu anytime.

anyways, back to reality. i finished the competition, my first and last competition. My best effort.

literally this is the first competition ive been in without me using any brains at all, whereby my body was the primary focus of the judges.

well, i wasnt dissapointed by the results, i felt that i did allright, and i knew i did my best and overall, i felt secretly pleased.

pardon the sucky english, im tired and i've studied for the whole freakin day.

hmm...