Memo Posts! teehee:D

Okay. now that we are done blabbering our thankyous, lets get down to the nitty gritty ( erhmahgead it seems sooo brit esh)

OOOkay. LETS STAY ON TRACK MR WEE. WEEWEE DRY.

Memo - October 5th, 2012. My birthday.
Was supposed to mug the day away with natrisha(wee awesome girl!)
well... so was feeling a general mixture of despondancy, utter numbness and a tinge of sadness(that huge volume of sadness was held behind the mental barrier, its something about me that i've developed; a layer of toughened emotional armour made possible through the tough scabs that grew after the deep gashes that these traumatic 2 years have inflicted upon). Also a tiny amount of neglect, cause i believed that my friends have forgotten my birthday. how wrong i was... Thanks to these people who lifted me up as a person. Who made me feel that im actually important to them. Even if the reason for that party is much left undesired for.

Thank you : Yan ning ( my dar), Natrisha ( secret keeper) , Xuan Ming (-_-), Xin Dong ( frickin surprised and touched he showed up), Yiqian ( :DD), Durgadevi ( :DD), JINGXUAN LOL, Jia Rui(Surprised as well :))... eeeehhh... i think thats about all?

and of course, the bros, who've never failed me. Joshua, Jinson, Zhiren. no smilies necessary, you guys know how i feel.

So.. here goes.
"Growing older, one does feel a certain amount of sadness. With the passage of time, one grows more aware, yet less aware, of the things they've lost. One grows sadder and sadder, but yet steadily, sorrow is replaced with being sorry. Being sorry for the things you never did. Being sorry for the things you dreamed up of doing in the past. Being sorry to the past you, for failing to accomplish the things that you've promised yourself that you would do. And one grows steadily sorrier as time passes even quicker than before."

well, there were some conclusions that hit home brutally that day. even though there was a surprise birthday party and all after that. And a final conclusion that i will not share it here, cause its too personal. only a single soul on earth knows the logic path that led to this conclusion, since unknown visitation of this concept occured to her before.
Thank you again natrisha. meeting you warrented coming to jc.

Anyways... oo my spacebar is sqeaky. o_o? lol erhmahgead its so furrn to pleh with mah keybeurd. eurhmeahgeaaadddddd~~ spaz.

Anyways, next memo post is on graduation day. Or rather, the day before graduation, on the 7th of october. Graduation was on the 8th. ill put that on the next post.