The war without words nor action

What am i doing

I have no idea. Messed up beyond belief, convulated.

fuck

i cant, i dont know how. what the fuck am i doing.

fucking around with girls.

im unworthy as fuck.

im so sorry.

so, so sorry.

i promise, i'll try my best.

but in the meantime, i'll just bang my head against the wall repeatedly. i'll continue banging it until i ensure that my thinking is permanantly straightned out. even if i fall into a motherfuckin coma i will make sure that i'll claw my way out n continue banging my bloodsoaked head against the motherfuckin wall.